ranting weren't fun
but i want to make this really short

I HATE BEING COMPARED!
what so good about comparing people ?
ths is so sad
im just being myself
being individualisme

I NEVER LIKE PEOPLE WHO NEVER LISTEN TO MY OPINION!
so you think you have the world best idea ever?
you might wrong!
so stop bitching your idea all the way
why not listen to mine?

IM SO SICK OF IT!
im being to optimistic which makes me feel so sick of it

i hate being at home
im sick of all these argument
which makes me almost breakdown and just cry like a baby!!!
i skipped most of the time listening to my songs with headphone
i dont feel like listening things around me ...
which makes me feel more sad n sad
i purposely wanted to fight back everything..
i dont wanna lose to you
i hate being monitored on ,
on how many hours i spent on lappie
what time i should sleep
what time should i eat
what should i eat
what time to come back home
what you wanted me to study
what songs i listen
what tv show should i watch
what songs i hafta listen
when im going to cut my hair
for query the existance of god or spirit
why i watch anime
why i download so many movies
where to follow you
who being right or wrong
what im doing at home
number of time i colour my hair
what colour i dyed
reason why im not open up with you guys at home
time allocate to finish my assg
etc..

this really makes me sick

im the meanie at home
because i've to act so
I WILL NEVER SHED A TEAR BECAUSE I SHOULDN'T
and they're expensive to be shed

i've held back my tears till i forgot
how to cry sometimes
tears make people looks like weakling !

Aiyer~

wow i rant a lot nowadays =D"
oh well
new rant! XD

i just can't stop ranting about my ol friends tho,
since they've suddenly become a biatch that
i myself am not sure why and how some people can tahan..

first i was dumped after 2-3 hours of waiting for their sorry arses,
now, i being dumped in a middle of reunion???

i mean like,
bringing your boyfriends, your buchuk2, your hubby2, your papa2
(yes they call themselves as papa n mama gehk)
to a bloody class reunion???
what in the name of donkey arses were u guys thinking??
wanna show off yr lovey dovey lovers ah?

at first yah, i'm somewhat okay with them bringing their lovers
but just meeting for 30mins,
the fecking fuglies boyfriendzz suddenly wanna go dating
and have their lovey dovey time togethar~in private~

.....

1. DO NOT COME TO A GALZ DAY OUT IF YOU WANNA GO DATING DATING
2. DO NOT BRING UR FUGLY BOYFRENDZ TO A GALZ ONLY REUNION
3. DO NOT GO ALL LOVEY DOVEY IN FRONT OF ME LIKE IM A STATUE
4. DO NOT SMOOCHY SMOOCHY IN FRONT OF ME WHEN U GUYS ARE DARN-FECKING MALAYYYS!!!!!

it's darn embarrasing!!
the chinese and indian friends didnt even bring their boyfriends
and acting like that in front of them is....
seriously makin me wanna go and tampar the hell off them

Im okay if the boyfriends are like chatting with everyone
get to know everyone etc.
but this type are those who didn't even give a shit of who you are,
and just sit there and hugging the gf etc.
not giving the girl a chance to talk to us at all

fecked up reunion was fecked up
and im really furious with them
i did tell them tho

but they sayang~ their papa too much

dood,
i'm not saying ya should break up with the guy or nething
or not to bring yer papa or nething,
i just want ya guys to be a lil more respectful la,
it was suppose to be a reunion,
not one of yer date days.

-_-

that oso susah to masuk kepala ah

Durama~

im not sure why,

but this thing's becoming more and more uncontrollable

i tried not to give a darn thing about being in a relationship.

in fact i have not the slightest worry in my head

that i might be single for the rest of my life

( not happy tho but not worried )

it's true when people said

"jodoh di tanganTuhan etc."

and i really do hold on to that,

since i'm not looking and people aren't really have any interest in me too.

.......

but it became a burden ,

when you actually hit 21

and people started to ask you questions,

on whether or not you will ever have a partner to accompany you

for the rest of your itsy bitsy life.

I'm telling you this,

it's not because i like the same sex

that i have no interest in the opposite sex.

it's not because i have an oh-so-dramatic-experience in the past

that i have no interest in having a love life.

it's not because im having fun right now,

that i have no whatsoever interest in having a person tied on my back.

it's not what you normal people think

that i am still a single person that i am today

without having any relationship whatsoever for the past 21 years of my life.

the thing is,

i don't see the rush in having this kind of a thing in my life.

i'm okay with people rushing to have a girlfriend or a boyfriend

while they are still in their teen/younger years.

i'm not one of them,

for me love can come whenever or whatever time

be it 30-ish or 40-ish or maybe much more older

i don't mind.

So now i keep on wondering,

why people kept on asking me,

day by day

"aren't you worried?"

"kalau jadi andartu macamane?"

"ish nanti tue tak ade orang nak!"

why?

i've never asked for any pity nor asked anyone to be worried

even my parents aren't

(well not yet im sure)

who knows maybe tomorrow i'll have someone,

maybe in 2 more years,

maybe 3? 4? 5?

mabye 10 or 20 more years.

who knows right?

i can still do a lot of things while waiting,

riding bikes in japan for example =)

(true that's my goal)

I'm confused now..

You want me to be happy with the one i love,

to be forever with the one i've chosen,

to have a strong relationship with whom i am to marry.

so...

who is this person,

whom you're forcing me to marry?

who is this person,

whom i am forced to love?

who is this person,

a stranger whom i have not possibly known in my life?

is it a curse?

being 21 and still single?

"This is for your own good"

"This is all for your own happiness"

will this make me happy?

why must other people make decisions,

to make other people's life more....

happy?

this is my life

i have my own right to lead my life in whatever way i want

why can't people respect that?

need to teach ah?

life can be such a drama some times..

BUZZ OFF

its so unfair...
y..oways dump everything on me...==

people like 2 bully me...
cz i'm 2 nice...(dun mind me...lemme perasan awhile)
luv 2 leave everything 2 me
let me gao tim

but i hav limitations..
i'm jz human

u think i'm so free ah
go all the way 2 subang jz 2 fetch u 2 kl central
u so geng hor
i oredi said we go bak 2geter tis fri
summore wana say can u go bak earlier
summore wan me 2 fetch

..........


@#$*#&HJDKAZDF@#^(I$W%CGHKSER
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

halo!
use ur brain!
jz wait 1 day oni will die izit!!!!

so dai siu zhe (princess)
u think hu u r now??!!!
treat me like slave summore..zzz
i dun care how lonely u r
live wif it
u come here 2 study
not 2 hav fun
every1 hav da same problem
dun think u r da world

use ur brain
u think every1 can obey ur every order izit?
wat u wan oso ur parents giv u
come kl study oso so many complain
summore hav da guts 2 tell me duno wat 2 study but jz take pre u 4 fun
go die la
no aim punya people
i feel so sad 4 u
wat oso ur mum decide 4 u until now

come study here...FINE
dun bother other people
i hav my own studies...i hav my own life
i'm not a babysitter

ask ur mama go take care of u instead
bring ur whole family here
if u mama call me 2 take care of u again i jz fark her
i dun care

i had enuf
my own mum oso tell me 2 b patient
every1 oso lidat
y dun try 2 understand my situation
dah lah my family oredi boh liao
i dun nid any1 support me
jz dun farking giv me problems

................



sori guys...i duno wat i'm ranting
i jz feel like it...==

Biatch will always be a Biatch

I havent rant for quite a long time edy ~

but then again, when things seriously went this way..

i just hafta R.A.N.T 8DD

the sheet starts like this,

after so long of

no-whatsoever-connection-tho-u-have-a-bloody-phone situation my friends,

they suddenly decided to call me

oh hurrah! i r being remembered!

but then,

THEN

.

.

.

*RingRingRing*

Me : yop

Biatch : EEEEh SO lOng haVent SEE Youuu (retarded way of typing)

ME : ya oh, so wazzup? dah kawen ah?

Biatch : eeee mane ade! i baru Dapat Bf BArew

Me : Orly (how many bf does she hd oso i dunno)

Biatch : OOh OOh Jom Kuar TomorroW!! Kite ngan Member2 nak?

Me : okai then , leh je kot

Biatch : yeyy! neThinG I Msg U K? Bye Rin~

......

wait....

RIN???

WHO DA FAK IS RINN???????????

ok la ok la fine, mebbe tersalah name

The next day when we were suppose to see each othar~

i was there waiting..

waitingg...

waitiing.....

oh look 2 hours passed edy!

wow!

waitinnng.......

*BeepBeepBeep*(msg)

eeeeh Sorry tauu i ade hal la today! i lupe nak msg you tadi! sorry ek?? - biatch

......

i thot we were suppose to hang out with FRIENDS

i bet she didnt even msg the other friends etc. bout the outing

so there i was walking around doing nothing ~

stopped at lovelylace fr a while..

oh! a cute loookin teddy be....aaah???

the so called friend of mine's hogging her bf and giiggles like a sheet arse she is

and around them was her other friends (i think) in front of the shop.

doood my hands were shaking liek helllll 8DDDDDDDDDD

then again i just get out of the shop

and just stare at her

she noticed and still go giggle2 with her friends

oh well,

in her private blog

(y do u make it private if u're putting stuff online??)

she was all

-eehh hari ni best sangat, keluar dengan member and *******-

-eee tapi kan ade sorang pompuan ni keluar dari lovely lace punye kedai-

-pastu terus jeling kat i-

-eeeeee geramnye-

and her friends comment was all bashing that poor-starin-person oso

then i just comment

- tu aku la -

aaaand soo it ends theree~

people can seriously be a biatch

and act all innocent sometimes

.....

as for me

A LOT of times

IM FREAKING MAD!

well something really great to rant about again!

2 MAJOR RANTS!



one is definitely about my parent again!

WHEEE!!

thats one of the reason why i dont like going back home so early

because everytime go home i feel very tired or explaining things

and making up a scene at home again!

you guys think i enjoy making scenes at home?

tiring!

so this bon odori thing seriously takes half of my life~

my mum keep telling me what's that

any foreigners there

H1N1

stay at which fren's house

why yo mix with malay frens

why go bon odori

these stereotype thinking seriously kills meh!



what about you?

you're going thailand again this fri till sun!

so no H1N1?

so you leaving me at home for 3 days one night

you understand how i feel when im at home alone?

the boredom?!

i bet you dont!

cause you always think that you're giving me alot of freedom~!

indeed it is!

but i think you're still pulling the string too much

which will cause the the tension to break off the string soon!

which is just nao!



i hafta use so many times of fucks to argue with you for the first time

i alr asked them to leave me alone for now

i feel tired everytime i go home~





the second best thing is my frens~

this particular group of high school frens

when i asked "anyone going bon odori?"

replies "NO~~ NOT INTERESTED~"



how bout just now u just msn me?

oh you going the bon thingy?

cant even say properly~

then even tell me go in the morning

HUH!?

since when bon odori is in the morning?

so you insisted~

go ahead in the morning and help erect the stands~

and you think bon odori is somethig to play around weaing this fashionable things?

im too sorry to tell you thiS!

bon odori is not a place to play

so respect people!!!



FARK OFFF!!!

Seriously i dunno why my parent started to annoy me easily lately!
what's wrong for doing my assignments until 1-2am?
whats wrong for not cutting my hair now?
whats wrong for watching midnight shows?

they threaten me not to pay fer my fees and no nid study
i think they're expecting some normal shyts results from me huh?
but i cant do that!

complaining how untidy my hair is
so dont look and turn around..
isnt it the easiest solution?

the second thing that really make me goes me today is..
perspective class!
we're suppose to learn shadows and reflections today in class!
but due to the fact that many people didnt do their construction lines!
*worse! didnt even finish their thumbs*
we've to postpone it till next week
and do it on the spot next week before submission!
WTFARK!
if you guys wanna study pls do your assg!
im not concerning bout ur result but
you are dragging all of us down!

and mrs jonathan a.k.a m*ki
seriously thinks she can crack a joke
and they're both psychological twins!
they say the same things!
share the same bloody attitude!
just that i tot can escape from jonathan!
there goes pop out another m*ki!
you can't draw ur things properly.. so pls dont comment on pp's work!
GET A FARKING LIFE!
what's wrong with you saying my parking space looks like a tomb
WTFARK IS WRONG WITH YOU BITCH!

worst of all thing is sticking transformer symbol onto your car!
you think your car can change to robots and save the world?
dream on!
AND TRANSFORMERS SUCKSSS!!
SORRY TRANSFORMERS FANS!